7th July 2005
Yesterday I started thinking more about the phone call I had with Anthony on Saturday. I thought back to a couple of things we were talking about before I got upset about the adoption papers. Anthony asked if I had got any further with getting a copy of the relinquishment paper so told him I’m no further on and wasn’t even completely sure what court I should be applying to. He has told me it is Brentwood Family Court and to expect a battle to get what I want …. that it would probably be easier for me just to view it at the court. Anthony knows that I know courts don’t like mothers viewing anything to do with them as it has been known for adoptions not to be completed so don’t want the risk of this being made public. Shortly afterwards Anthony asked me if I had ever thought about doing an Open University course so I said I had done in the past but never got round to it. He then suggested doing a law degree then hesitantly suggested specializing in family law. At the time I didn’t think anything off it but the more I think about now the more odd I think the conversation was. It still makes me wonder if he knows something I don’t …. if he does I wish he would just tell me.