4th September 2005
Have been working through my symptons with Ursula and she has come to the conclusion my anxiety level is bad. She has urged me to go to my doctor and I know she is right but whether I do or not is another matter. The last time I did that I was told more or less to pull myself together as I was an intelligent woman who knew what the problem was so I should be able to work through it on my own and basically told to “get over it”. Not very good advice from a doctor particularly as he knew I wasn’t sleeping to well or eating much so that was stressing me out even more. Having the same problem again over eating and sleeping so I’m constantly feeling tired and irritable. How I feel about my parents, dealing with my low self esteem and anything adoption related is really getting me down and I am having problems getting it back into perspective again.