12th March 2006
It seems incredible that a couple of weeks have gone by and I have sadly neglected my blog. Tonight that changes as I am no longer posting where my journal was so as I post here now I will probably add bits and pieces from that to this.
A couple of weeks ago I fell out with my son and this time it was a major falling out over his anger/birth father issues. He then went onto post publicly some unpleasant, untrue things which really hurt me deeply including I “made him hate me”. Anthony told me he didn’t want to hear from me for the foreseeable future and I told him that was fine by me as I never wanted to hear from him again. I can no longer tolerate his bad behaviour, twisting things that have been said then accusing me of doing exactly the same.
Within a few days I fell ill which has been put done to being gastric flu. I’m still not 100% fit but I am getting there. By now I was hoping to feel emotionally better though but I’m not.
*Seven months into reunion I was completely used to my son being either very happy or angry. When he is happy we get on well, when my son is angry he is nasty and hurtful which is difficult to deal with. I have been polite to him when he gets like this, ignored him, got frustrated and at times I have got annoyed. Nothing I say or do makes any difference so I learned to back off.