13 May 2005
Wish I had held off looking at threads till later but decided to have a break for typing up the last of the poetry. Just read about a member who is pregnant, I am happy for her but I just feel like crying. Today, again, I know I’m not pregnant and it is depressing me badly. Rick wonders why I’m so negative at times but he can’t accept that it is extremely unlikely we will have our own without medical help. It will take months before we know if the review panel will overturn the decision that we can’t have ‘help’ due to my age. It will also take us at least a year to have anyway near enough money to have one attempt at going ‘private’.