29th December 2011
We’ve had better Christmas but at least we had a peaceful one. Having gone through a bad bout of severe depression hasn’t helped though. These bouts are getting more frequent so I am wondering what the point of taking anti depressants is. The only reason I have was because the doctor I saw before Christmas suggested I had an ECG and blood test then have a chat about a way forward. I shall give it another week then will probably make an appointment to see my GP to talk about it.
My concentration is better though so have started reading more often. I also want to get back to writing again. I have got a couple of ideas for books which I want to make a start on. Poetry is another thing I’m thinking off getting back to.
The past year has been tough in one way and another. The most prominent thing has been my mum dying. It affected me more than I ever thought it would. Whatever our differences were she was still my mother and I loved her. My one regret is that we hadn’t talked to each other for a couple of years. Our last conversation had been a good one which is a positive. It has made me even more aware that life is too short to hold on to the past. Nobody can change the past but we can all shape our futures.