I am at the stage of being fed up of the snow. Last Sunday I slipped which hasn’t helped my mood lately although fortunately I was only bruised. A positive is last night was the best night’s sleep I have had for a long time. I take Amitriptyline which I have been increasing on a weekly basis so I’m now taking 50mg nightly. It is a relief that something is finally working for me. I feel like a walking pharmacist though with all the medication I have to take.
Depression is still hitting me hard and I simply hiding it from the world on a daily basis. Each day that passes is a day closer to the day I die as I don’t have the courage to take my own life.