The joy of snow

I am at the stage of being fed up of the snow.  Last Sunday I slipped which hasn’t helped my mood lately although fortunately I was only bruised.   A positive is last night was the best night’s sleep I have had for a long time.  I take Amitriptyline which I have been increasing on a weekly basis so I’m now taking 50mg nightly.  It is a relief that something is finally working for me.  I feel like a walking pharmacist though with all the medication I have to take.

Depression is still hitting me hard and I simply hiding it from the world on a daily basis.  Each day that passes is a day closer to the day I die as I don’t have the courage to take my own life.

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About Philippa

I am married to Rick and we live in a small town in County Durham. We have two dogs, a cat and two budgies. I am also an adoption survivor. In 1981 my son was born and I was then forced to surrender him. It took 23 years and reunion for my to find out that my son's adoption was legally known as a forced adoption and illegal but social workers got away with it because mothers didn't know their rights.
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