Author Archives: Philippa

About Philippa

I am married to Rick and we live in a small town in County Durham. We have two dogs, a cat and two budgies. I am also an adoption survivor. In 1981 my son was born and I was then forced to surrender him. It took 23 years and reunion for my to find out that my son's adoption was legally known as a forced adoption and illegal but social workers got away with it because mothers didn't know their rights.

Not a Good Enough Mother

Not a Good Enough Mother Once upon a time I dreamed of being a mother, A loving marriage to have in the future, A future full of love, happiness and laughter, Never thought I would be not a good enough … Continue reading

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Mood improving

12th November 2013 My mood is finally improving slowly.  Having been depressed and stressed out for so long it’s good to finally feel better.  What hasn’t helped me recently has been trying to sort out my meds due to waiting … Continue reading

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Severe depression again

26th October 2013 I have been severely depressed due to our neighbour’s appalling behaviour so lost the heart to write.  It seemed like every time I went out in the garden he had to go out just to make me … Continue reading

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Happy Birthday Anthony

3rd August 2013 Happy Birthday Anthony You were born 32 years ago today.  A day I will never forget not because of the joy of giving birth to a beautiful boy but because I knew I was on a losing … Continue reading

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Mot a good enough mother

16th July 2013 Have had several bad days and nothing I do is cheering me up.  Usually when my mood is low I try to keep busy to take my mood off that.  What isn’t helping is knowing people who … Continue reading

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Feeling down

It feels like a vicious circle at the moment.  Some days are better than others but even on my good days something sets me off.  It doesn’t help having a neighbour from hell whose latest tactic is stand at his … Continue reading

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Neighbour behaving badly

We recently found out that Rick does suffer with angina and one of his arteries has lost 30% activity.  This means more tablets and spray plus Rick getting the ‘lose weight’ and ‘quit smoking’ lectures.  We have been under stress … Continue reading

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