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Monthly Archives: July 2013
Triggers
18th January 2012 I have been following Emmerdale which has been obsessive and triggering. In the storyline one of the characters is called ‘Amy’ who has been in foster care and ended up being with ‘the Pollards’. She fell pregnant … Continue reading
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Coercion
17th January 2012 The Baby Scoop Era is hardly a period of social history that will be remembered in a good light. So many mothers lost their babies to adoption for no better reason that society wouldn’t accept young, single … Continue reading
Gossiping
16th January 2012 Thanks to some gossiping my mood plummeted again and I haven’t been able to concentrate. What makes it worse it is church people gossiping instead of talking to us. It’s been sorted with the elders but all … Continue reading
Good start to the New Year
3rd January 2012 I am feeling much better now. Each day has got easier and I have had a good start to the new year. We didn’t go out New Year’s Eve as our dogs are scared of fireworks. Bruno … Continue reading
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Quiet Christmas
29th December 2011 We’ve had better Christmas but at least we had a peaceful one. Having gone through a bad bout of severe depression hasn’t helped though. These bouts are getting more frequent so I am wondering what the point … Continue reading
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Christmas Day
25th December 2011 The past two weeks has been tough. Two weeks yesterday I was at rock bottom in the first time in over two years. I admitted to Rick that all I wanted to do was die but I … Continue reading
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Mood not great
19th December 2011 My mood had improved by the weekend but today it nosedived again. At the moment I don’t know what to do as a distraction. Nothing is working. It’s got that bad that I don’t want to talk … Continue reading
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Meltdown
13th December 2011 On Saturday I went into complete meltdown and I was at rock bottom. I told Rick who knew I was being serious so to cut the story short I saw the crisis team. Sunday afternoon the crisis … Continue reading
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Depressed
9th December 2011 Yesterday was a very dark day for me. I knew it was building up to this for days. My concentration hasn’t been good and I have been stressed out. Rick suffered a bit in the evening for … Continue reading
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Facing up to the past
1st December 2011 It has been emotionally tiring thinking back over my life. Reunion had left in turmoil over my feelings. It was scary knowing how extreme my emotions were. My anger turned into sheer rage and at times I … Continue reading
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